Shake it out

I was listening to music this morning while getting dressed and such.  The first song that came on was “Shake it out” by Florence and the Machine.  I haven’t heard the song in awhile.  But today, it struck me.  It was the song I was supposed to hear today.

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it’s always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but its left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn
Oh woah, oh woah…
And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

As you may have noticed from a few of my previous posts, I have been a little overwhelmed and such with the move and all of the change and stuff going on in my life.  I guess all of the moping about that stuff brought out a lot of other guilt and thoughts about things that I really don’t need to stew on any more than I already have.  But more than that, I have been taking it all on my own.  Despite Patrick sitting by worrying about how unhappy I have been seeming, I have been plugging away at things as if nothing is wrong and pretty much ignoring anyone’s attempts to help… Including God’s.

With the first verse, a verse I have heard many times before, I thought hmmm… That is just like me.  Maybe it is the Barnum effect, but nonetheless, I connected with the lyrics.  With the feeling of being dragged down by things I can’t see, but can feel.

And then the chorus started… “Shake it out…” And repeat.  I don’t know if I ever really though about it.  Shaking out the cobwebs.  Shaking out the anxiety and stress.  Makes sense.  But, especially the fact that “its hard to dance with the devil on your back.”  Very true.  It is… That is a lot of extra weight.  I am a firm believer that much of the negative feelings and worries and all of the nasty stuff is maintained by the devil.  That although God lets us go through trials that the devil wants us to feel the doubts and anxiety.  And that really drags you down. 

The overarching concept of the song is restarting.  A new beginning.  Getting the devil off your back and moving forward. 

Grace is awesome like that.  God puts up with all of our crap and lets us come back to Him.  Every time.  He doesn’t like it, but He loves us, so it works. 

So really, I think I sorted myself out a bit today.  I remembered that I need to get over the changes and move on.  That God can help me pick the devil off of my back and get on with living.  Because there is so much more to dance about than wallow in.  And that is great!

2 thoughts on “Shake it out

  1. do you think now that school is finished you have more “space” in your mind/ time on your hand for some of that old crud to surface? Second question. How long have you guys been married? The reason I ask is I’m wondering if some of your angst is relationship related as well as pre- married life. The first 10 yrs of marriage were like being on a river hitting #5 rapids @ the most random times.

    • It is most certainly because school is finished that I have more “space” for things to surface. It isn’t all bad either. It just isn’t good to stew on some of it. I have not had this much time to think in, well, as long as I can remember. So not since I had things to think about.
      We have been married for 3 years… It is a bit of a ride on rapids by times. Though, most of this angst is related to all of the change going on and strangely, my marriage is one of the few consistent things in life right now. That and Jesus. A good thing for sure.

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