Check out this fantastic post by Nathan called Lessons from Psychiatry Part 1: How I Balance Faith and Medicine and Exams.
Seriously. Read it now.
I read this and I thought… Wow… Here is a lesson I have learned over and over again. And a lesson I forget more often than I should given the number of times that I should have learned it.
Over the last few weeks with my exams and presentations and relationships all seeming to want to demand my attention, my relationship with God has been a struggle for me. It came up at small group, it came up in my own (very rare) Bible reading. It came up everywhere.
And really, my relationship with God should not be a struggle. It should be something I work at. Something that I want to have. But, really, I think it shouldn’t be a struggle.
And yes, I realize that is kind of putting pressure on myself.
God wants a relationship with me. But like any relationship, it takes time and effort to maintain it. And I should want to maintain it. Just like I maintain my marriage and a million other relationships.
I don’t always make it the priority that He deserves.
It is easier sometimes to put my human priorities in front. Things that seem more pressing.
Nathan points out the example of Daniel and his friends. They put God first in what I consider to be a more trying situation than anything the world of medicine can throw at me and look where it got them… Right at the right hand of the King. Sure, they had some struggles and trials, but really, it worked out.
And that is the main thing.
I can’t doubt the promises of God.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” -Jeremiah 29:11
No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39.
He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. -Isaiah 40:29-31
He is pretty much the only person I can’t doubt.
So, I should put Him first.
Honest answer… Not so much.
Really reading this post was kind of a slap in the face. I had so much faith in myself. So much pressure on myself. And I took God time to make it more study time or sleep time or anything else time.
And yet, I feel like the prayers and love of others and God’s grace and peace were upon me. Because that is how great God is.
I think I would have felt better had I given Him the time and credit he deserves.
The beauty is He has so much grace I can learn for next time (hopefully with a different exam, though).